stay close to me

lately my life has been hectic and crazy and basically a mess.  It seems like everyday there is another change, another obstacle holding me back from where God wants me to be in my life.  This morning I read a devotion from the most amazing woman on this earth - my mom.  It will now be the second time I am reading her devotional for women; the first time I was soo excited that she had finally published it i blew through the whole thing in one day.  Now I am going back, taking it all in.  I am at that spot in my life where I feel like nothing is ever going to work out for me.  I am graduating college with no idea what to do, I'm having foot surgery again, and boys?  i do not even have words for that.  For the past two days I had been feeling like there was a lot I needed to change in my life and when  I opened my little devotional and started reading I knew  everything I had been feeling and planning and wanting to change for the past two days was right: "Doors will open that no man can close.  Opportunities to pour into individual lives will be yours for the taking. I've told you in times past, change comes and is necessary for My will to be accomplished. Don't look with fear or dread, but look with great excitement and anticipation." I could only cry as I continued to read because I am finally facing what I knew all along, that all I have been through, all that in my eyes has gone wrong was for a purpose - to make me stronger, to prepare me for bigger changes, and the ultimate plan God has for my life. 

"Then you will cal upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:12-13

In other news on Monday night I sat in a line, in the middle of a littered street, in downtown Jacksonville from 3am till 8am.  I listened to people play their guitars and sing in an effortless attempt to show off their glorious talent.  I heard the life story of a very interesting lady who just wanted to say hey to her "chirrens" as the camera came by and went on to let everyone within ear range of her know that she was gonna get that child support whether that crack head was in jail or not.  I met a nice guy named Brad to whom we showed the guy on youtube that sings like a girl and actually sounds good.  I met a father and son from Middleburg who were very nice and told us exactly what to expect and who we will probably see again on Wednesday since hey received their wristbands right before us.  Oh and how can I forget the guy with three teeth and his large friend.  It was quite a night but ya know what? I GOT MY WRISTBAND!!!!